Capere-Omnes

What's in a promise?
Secrets--lies-hope--faith--love?

Sometimes it's just words that spill out without a moments notice to fill the silence, to fill the need to be wanted.
Only time can tell the weight of words that weigh so heavily on our shoulders.

And what is in a promise besides empty words that instill hope in the heart of others?
The future is unknown and promises turn to lies, laughter to tears.



Never let false words fill your heart when only actions tell you the truth.

I've always hated the rain. Or at least I thought I did.
But when I unfurled the curtains from my window tonight and saw the rain dancing in the dull light of the street lamp, I felt a sudden urge to run outside, to feel the wet earth between my toes, to feel tears of the sky drench my clothes, my heart, my soul.

They are like sparkling drops of heaven that nourish the earth with each tiny droplet.
Each droplet is weak, but together, they form a massive storm that can move the earth, the soul.

I long to run in the rain with you.
I long to hold your hand close to my heart.
I long to kiss your lips to my hearts desire.
Oh how I miss you.

I stare out into the darkness and think of you.
It seems as if each rain drop contains a syllable and as they splash onto the hard cold ground, a syllable is whispered into the cool damp air. Together, it sounds like an orchestra. With crescendos and decrescendos, pits and falls in the repeating melody.
They whisper a word over and over again. Your name...
I will for the rain to stop now...for every drop that whispers your name reminds me of you.
Your touch, your kiss, your voice.

I pray that we stay strong together.
Another 2 months until I am able to feel your warm embrace once more.
Another 2 months until I am able to feel your soft lips caress mine.
I pray that we stay strong together.

It's selfish of me to want to keep him to myself.
I want him all to myself and I don't want to share any part of him with the rest of the world.

I don't want him to look back years from now and regret being with me because I held him back. I know what the right thing to do is. But it's not one that my heart agrees with.

If I really like him, then I would let him go.

But the heart is selfish and although my head tells me that it's the right choice to make, my heart is the one that is holding me back from saying those words that would cut him out of my life forever.



It wasn't suppose to be this hard. It never was.
I never saw all these complications before, all I saw was two people who like each other and want to be with each other...

Sorry I have been so inactive!
Been in China for the past few weeks and only recently have I gotten a hold of a laptop.

There are so many pictures I've taken on this magical journey in this foreign country! Although my parents are from China and I've been here many times before when I was younger, everything is still seems to have a magical and foreign aurora to it.

I'm excited to go home and edit all the pictures!
Seeing it on the small screen of my Nikon camera is already so exciting, I cannot wait to see it on the big screen and spend precious hours laboring in photoshop to obtain the perfect colors and focus!


I'll be back soon! More sight seeing to do ^ ^
So stay tuned for more pictures later in July and August~

I often wonder to myself...what would it be like to live in someone else's shoes for a day?


To escape for a moment from the problems of your life.
To get a glimpse of the world from a whole new perspective.
To feel alive in a different sense.
To be someone else.


Don't get me wrong, I love who I am.
But still, I can't help but wonder.








Mood:
Listening to: Imagine - John Lennon